Dear Susan

Surprisingly, yesterday, someone bought my east to knit, Aran , Dear Susan, Jumper pattern. I made this when I lived in Shetland and the entire piece is dedicated to the woman that lived in the house that I bought.

This is a beautiful, quick, easy knit yoke pullover, knitted in Aran weight yarn. It is entirely inspired from my living in Shetland with the landscape, the sea, the weather, the house I bought – and is a letter to Susan Halcrow, a woman that lived in the same house from 1876 to 1960. ‘Dear Susan’

The pattern (which is here) has a 12 page letter/story dedicated to her which is where the name of the pattern comes from

I originally knitted this pullover in spindrift yarn in the summer of 2021 but this jumper / easy pullover, has been knitted for Winter in Aran weight and is a fun, quick easy knit.

It is one size and fits many people. You can lengthen the body if you require.

It is knitted using 4mm (US6) circular needles and 2:75mm (US2) for the sleeve cuffs. It has been knitted by 4 test knitters – from a complete beginner to very experienced. Some of the test knitters went rogue with their yarn choices and the outcomes are lovely.

You can also make it a little larger by using 5mm needles – as one test knitter did.

Yarn:- Jamieson’s of Shetland Aran weight Heather yarn.

My test knitters used lots of different yarns and you will see this in the projects. You can try your Aran wight stash.

There are coloured charts, photos to explain how to do some of the stages and indepth fully written pattern. (23 pages in all to this pattern) 9 pages for the pattern –

Additional, to the pattern is a 12 page story/ letter dedicated to Susan Halcrow – Dear Susan,

here is an extract from the end of the letter after many months of research and living in the house …

(May 2021)
Dear Susan – friend – may I call you friend?

I imagine you looking out of the South Bedroom window as I now do. The early spring evening light is illuminating the edge of the land, holding back the blue, blue sea.
Would you have lit a fire in hearth in this bedroom beside you? I can see you putting the animals to bed – the cow in the barn (now derelict) the sheep in the field (now overgrown) or letting them out on the first clear break after 5 days of blizzards, arctic ice and gale force winds? Would you have smiled at the sudden calmness after such elemental ferocity as I now do?

Everything inside the house has possibly changed since you left in 1960 – except the floors, the doors and the view and maybe the sounds of the birds. The nature and intensity of this ever-changing view through the window is both of ours – both yours and mine.

Susan ….

This is not just a pattern but a true testament to a beautiful woman who lived a very long life in a beautiful house facing the sea with harsh weather, managing on her own and living a full life. It is a pattern of love and integrity.
’Dear Susan’ in Aran weight is a great winter pullover entirely inspired by life in Shetland.

Grateful thanks to my test knitters for the Aran jumper –
Judi Hurst, Janet Benjafield, Cheryl De Ville and Tracie Bailey.

Happy Knitting.
From Tracey.

Dear Susan jumper is on ravelry

Sewing leaves

The owl hoots to his mate every morning around this time at 6 am. Sometimes he calls from within the garden or from behind the house over the road but always, the owl has the same call.  Within seconds, the response comes. I like to think that the two callers are mates but I don’t know anything about owls except that their calling is something that I love to hear before any other nameable sound, when I wake.   

Yesterday, I started collecting leaves, without having a prior plan. It is just that when I come across fallen leaves of deep beauty, they were too hard to leave behind on the city street.  The varying red leaves covered the cobbles in the city centre, by the Peace Gardens.   I don’t know what species of leaves they are, but I collected a bag full with an aim to sew the leaves.   It’s a spontaneous idea, responding to the season of falling leaves, and this is why I find myself here, sitting in bed at 6:30am, in the darkness hiding where the owl is hooting and I’m beginning to sew leaves. 

For the purpose, I’m using the Japanese silk thread that I bought when I was in Kyoto, a tiny needle threader and a Japanese needle in the hope of maybe that using them may evoke some tactile connection between Japan and my red Sheffield leaves 

Beneath the dim light of the lamp beside the bed, I go through the leaves without priority and started to sew them together with running stitch.  They’re not wet. They’re not dry. They have a moisturised feeling to the facing top side of these beautiful different leaves.  I know that I could put them in some glycerine / water liquid to make them last and be more flexible but that would take me too long.  The leaves, are after all, right here, right now.

What’s interesting is that I started sewing the leaves in a running stitch with a single thread but then the thread has fallen out of the needle at least three times so I think it’s best to sew using double thread with a sturdy knot at the end like my Grandad showed me how to do. That’s one finding and the other is my eyes are not as good as they were when I was younger and so I now need the help of a small wire needle threader and then the other thing is that from the age of 14, I was sewing all the time, anything even dresses and later, I did a lot more sewing when my children were young – I even made hand smoked dresses for my daughter.  I was busy being a young mum but I still did a lot of sewing.  I haven’t done any kind of sewing for over a decade but recently,  about a month ago, I treated myself to a new sewing machine and I’m really excited to be able to start sewing again but the other thing is I realised that even if I haven’t sewn for years,  that tacit knowledge comes back through the hands and through the sewing thread and how I hold the needle.  My hands know how to move and hold.   It’s quite hard to explain but if you give me a needle and thread, and if I could thread it easily, then I’m away and running – fearless.  My hands go back to the knowledge that I have stored within the core of my developing years for over 50 years.

I’ve noticed  that the leaves I’m sewing are building up in the centre because I didn’t make a plan.   I recognise that I am placing them too tightly but when I move the growing sheet of leaves in my hands, it feels like fabric. They haven’t dried out to be crisp. They’re floppy.

I add more leaves to the little bundle and the owl is forgotten until tomorrow before dawn.    I’m finding that I’m looking at the juxtaposition of the colours of the leaves against each other and how I look at one colour behind the other so that they stand out – just like knitting.   The pack of leaves gets thicker in certain sections and my running stitches I think are too long.   And, I find that the red thread is lost against the red of the leaves so I think I will go and choose a contrasting colour but at the moment I’m just experimenting. 

I put a knot in the silk thread at the end and chose a scarlet colour and then I started a gentle running stitch through the leaves. The leaves are so fresh, only having fallen yesterday that they are easily manipulating in a pliable way just as if fabric.  I just set off sewing around the edge of the first tiny leaf and then kept adding leaves behind and enjoyed the feeling of sewing through leaves. The act of sewing quietened me. It made me slow down because of trying to place the leaves and I just kept adding there was no order to it as such and this is the first time I’ve done it so I just wanted to experiment. I’m thinking of doing sheets of these leaves just to see how they work but also that they may work really well as a coating to my paper pots.

Another of my findings is that sometimes although all the leaves look the same some, more than others, can tear when the stitch is pulled through the leaf.  After the red, I’m using an orange thread now which is more visible and shows more mistakes. I’m not sure which colour thread I prefer.

Sewing leaves is a very slow act and I’m really enjoying it without any aim or goal other than to see what happens.

Let me know what you think

When I am lost, I go to the stones

Kaleidoscope Jumper

When I am lost, I come out here – to the base of Stanage Edge where the millstones lie. I eat breakfast and feel the gentle breath of a breeze. I can see for miles out towards Hope Valley, the stones are ancient – have been pushed and fallen, the rocks well climbed by amateurs and professionals alike and the paths well walked.
I have so many creative ideas that they are bursting and I’ve stopped to a point of disconnection because I measure myself by reward – but this place, this earthly place brings me back to me, to a core that I hadforget. The stones make me care again, connect and contribute to my creative process. I cannot compete with the millions of knitting patterns pushed out into the world that are for sale, nor do I want to but I know that this Kaleidoscope pattern is a very good one.

When I meet the millstones and the old stone trough, I knit, I eat, drink tea and I am grateful for my thoughts. I have had 3 ideas to put togethere with my Tree and star new sleeve and you will have to wait until I have finally made my choice.

I am heading to an artist residency at the base of Mount Fuji for the whole of December and I am working on a piece called between Silk and Paper, drawing on the Japanese concepts of Ma and Mono No Aware – You can read about it here

I’ve been working on the materiality of the pieces

But for now, I am very much enjoying my new knitted jumper – you could too, use your stash, make it yours, go out into the countryside and knit

Kaleidoscope Jumper

What is my purpose? What is yours?

This morning, I posted on Instagram, a question to myself and anyone else who wanted to answer.

Here is the post

Dear Friends, For so much of my life, my purpose was clear: raising children, working hard – even from the time I was working in a chip shop at the age of twelve, paying every bill, standing on my own two feet. My days were filled with responsibility, with caring for others, with the thought of always moving forward.

Now, at sixty-two, I find myself asking a new question: can my purpose be me? I was talking to a friend yesterday about giving up work. He said but I need purpose. My work is not my purpose.
So, now I wonder
Can purpose be found in quiet moments, like the way the rising sun casts a shadow across my wall? And I sit and truly enjoy that moment,
Can it be in the joy of growing plants, in sewing, in designing knitting patterns, in feeding my many wild animal friends, and listening to tig’s happy purring, and in simply being here—present in the now?

I think the answer is yes.
Maybe purpose doesn’t always have to be about doing more, giving more, proving more. Maybe it can be about inhabiting the life we’ve built, noticing the beauty around us, and letting ourselves rest in who we are today. I am accepting my new purpose in this new phase of my life.
What do you think?

Additionally, thank you to everyone who sponsored me for the 30 day walking for a 3 mile walk every day for Cancer Research Uk. We did good for the research and I walked every day and continue to do so.

instagram is here, if you would like to follow me.

and, if you would like to support me in this new season of my life, then, please buy a knitting pattern, then you, Ravelry, paypal and I will all get a little something. xxxx

I am off to Japan again this year and beginning to allow myself to be excited. There is still so much to sort but I will write from the place I am staying. I may even do a Christmas online workshop.

taking myself out of the photo.

I have been used to putting myself inside my knitting patterns to show how they look, but last week, I found a new way to show off the Kaleidoscope Jumper and the way in which my test knitter, Mary, knitted the Tree and star sleeve which is an add on pattern. Here are a few of the photos that I took of both jumpers and some of my clothes – I have a favourite.

I am wearing my Kaleidoscope Jumper as often as I can – last weekend to Yarndale in Skipton, where people actually recognised it. 🙂

I have started knitting a brand new Kaleidoscope Jumper using 3:5mm needles to see how big the jumper will come up when the orginal jumper, knitted using 3mm UK needles, comes up at a 44/45 inch chest. Here is the sleeve that I have been knitting but nights are dark now, so it is not so easy to knit in the evenings. Which colour do you like most?

I am, once again, using a rainbow of colours and, as you can see, I have knitted my initials into the sleeve and the year knitted. There might be 2 years knitted into this jumper 🙂 I am taking it slow – I have got a lot of projects on.